God, what are you trying to tell me? I met with one of my elders who felt that I shouldn't plan on going unless I had another $2000 to pay towards tuition for my Discipleship Training School by December 1st. Here's my plight: I have just enough money to buy the plane ticket, but I will have none left over towards any school fees. Should I wait, or should I continue in my plan on going this soon? My plan, which I believe is Your direction is that I go this January. Here's my fleece: if you provide another $2000 which I have no idea where it will come from than I will take it as a green light in going, if I don't I will take it as a yellow light. This is what my elder felt that I should ask of you. I trust that you can and are able of doing this miracle if it is your will. Give me your willingness to follow You even if it is not what I want! thank you Jesus! Give me a heart to serve you wholly no matter where I am, even at work. I know I don't always like it, but this is where You have me now. I want to be YOUR light even here at The Pit. I'm struggling with impatience because I like my comfort zone, I don't really like your challenges God. They try me and break me. But isn't that what I've been praying for? That I'd be broken by you. God You are showing me that my flesh is so weak! I need You God so fricken BAD!!!! I'm not satisfied with going even one day without Your help! I need Your Holy Spirit NOW!
Precious Lord, I pray all these things in Your name!
Amen
