My adventure with God

So I've been on this journey of discovering more about God which I never thought possible before. I'm discovering more about God, and in some ways it's changing my whole concept of who He is. I always thought of Him as Holy, someone to be feared, honored and obeyed, but I've been discovering this new aspect of who He is. That He is someone who has tender feelings towards me, an intimate, loving being who wants to be my beloved. A beloved who cares so much about me that He wants to fulfill my deepest needs and desires. He wants to go on adventure with me and captivate me with His beauty displayed in all that He's made. I love His creation, I love mountains, streams, beaches and exotic birds and colorful flowers. I love fresh fruit, and I love discovering new kinds of food that I never drempt existed. It's like I'm discovering a new world, and I love every moment of it. I love El Salvador. A new culture, language, beautiful, warm hearted people and breathtaking mountainous regiouns. More of which I still have yet to discover. Travelling is so much fun, but it's so much more fun when I do it with a friend. It's so awesome that I get to do it with God and be able to bless people here in so many ways. Last week I got to help create a vegetable garden for this orphanage in the mountains and then play with the children for the rest of the day. There were times in the day when I just needed to take a moment off in Joyland and take it all in. Wow! God loves me so much that He wanted to bless me with all of this! "God You are just too good for me, I don't deserve this!" but I could just feel His warm gaze upon me saying "Joy you just have no idea how much I love you, do you?" Obviously I don't, but God just keeps revealing more and more of His love for me, and it's stinkin' amazing guys!
I've been wondering a lot about my future. I've been praying a lot about it too. Reading His Word, talking to my mentor and doing a lot of deep thinking. When I ask God what I'm suppose to do, He just keeps asking me the same thing: "What do you want to do, Joy?" This is twisting my whole philosophy of who He is. I tell Him, "God, I want to do whatever you ask me to do. Should I go to college to become a counselor? Should I spend a year interning at Island Lake camp? what about YWAM Denver Secondary school of social justice?" but all I get from God is, "Joy, you choose, I approve of it all." Then I take a double take. This can't be God! He tells me what to do, and I obey. Right? But no, He's wanting to show me how much He loves me. That He wants to fulfill my desires. To just go for it! So, after months of praying, reading, debating, talking with my mentors, I daringly took a little step, and applied for Denver's school of social justice. This would prepare me more with working with victims of trafficking, modern day slavery and bringing awareness and justice to these issues. I'm also going to go ahead and apply to some Christian colleges for Biblical counseling. Counseling victims of trafficking, youth and children is huge on my heart. I've been realizing that God put this desire in my heart. I'd really appreciate it if you guys could continue to pray for me as I decide what to do and where to go. Pray that I would continue to surrender all my plans to God. Pray that I'd continue to trust God for provision, and if God leads you to donate towards my missionary endeavors, you are more than welcome to donate through my Paypal account here on my blog. Thank you guys for being a part of my life, and I can't wait to see many of you in just a few weeks here!