Jesus once asked the question to his disciples "if a son asks for a fish will his father give him a snake?" Only now do I realize the depth of that question. It's crazy that when i ask God for something, I am shocked when He actually answers it, but why am I surprised? Do I pour my heart out to God enough? Well, until the last few months, I honestly didn't really believe in God really inclining His ear to me or even really caring about my little life way down here, my little spec of space I take up in comparison to the vast universe which God fills and exceeds. But, on my journey in working on my relationship with God the last 6 months by doing a DTS, I met the person of the Trinity that I knew so little about: The Father. A perfect loving Father, who always sees me as His little princess. I have often over the years seen Jesus as the Bridegroom and the Holy Spirit as the evidence of my salvation, but I had little concept of the Father. I know, I've talked about this before, but I have just been marveling at how different I've felt since knowing this person of Trinity. A father who loves to make my day, a father who is a strong protector like in the movie Taken. I've always longed to have a father like that. One who would go to the ends of the earth for me, and do every thing in his power to protect me, one who loves me know matter how many mistakes I've made, one who would love to see me be happy, but at the same time cry when He gives me away on my wedding day. But, all the searching, the pining, the the groping and the fussing over not having a father in my life, I've finally come to know that I already have one. Just like the song God laid on my heart: "You are always good when others faulter, you're the best Daddy I could ask for, you are always there when no one else is, you are my best friend Jesus." And it's true! And my Daddy wants to tell the world how much He loves His little girl! He wants to spoil me. Sometimes, He has to firmly tell me what I don't want to hear when I'm walking in a path that is not the best for me, but He's there for me no matter what my status is in the world. No matter how many other people are. My Daddy is the engineer, don't be afraid!
Often when I've experienced God's love channeled through people, whether they were boyfriends, parents, family and friends, I use to attribute that love to the people, but now I've began to see that although yes, they are loving people, it's God who is the one who put that love in their heart. So before when someone who once "loved" me, didn't any more, I would think that it meant I was unlovable, not beautiful or not worth it, but now, I see the bigger picture: God shows His love through people, so even when they fail, they are the one's who fail, not God. God loves me no matter what. Now I can rest in that love. Because I can now say with confidence, that I've got the most loving, perfect, amazing Dad in the whole wide world, and He loves you to, so if you do not know Him like I do, I encourage you to just sit at His feet, open His Word and read in 1st John, or ask me or someone else to tell you more about this Father we know. A father who is unchanging and never brakes His word, and He is sorry for any bad father figures out there, because that was never His intention. Jesus Christ, Abba Father, Holy God, Wonerful Counselor and Everlasting Father, wants to be in a relationship with you and if you don't know Him very well, He's waiting for you to simply be still and truly listen, cuz He's got a love letter written for you.
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